Fireproof

I just want to give a shout out to the movie "Fireproof". It was a great reminder for couples and their marriage. It made me want to be a better wife. So if you get a chance watch it!! It might not be the best acting, but the message is great!

My Heart is Smiling

I woke up this morning to Payton giving Haylee and I kisses. Landon had left early and I was trying to sleep in a bit. The last few days have been hectic. Yesterday alone, I left at 7:30 am and got home at 8:30 pm. Wednesdays are the days where it is time to get the house back in order and it is time for me to love my kids. Anyhow I was tired and Haylee was miraculously still sleeping, so I sent Payton downstairs, hoping that he would find something to do.

Ten minutes later I talked myself into getting my behind out of bed. I came downstairs to find Payton sitting quietly, waiting patiently for me to get up. A surge of guilt went through me. It was a quiet morning. Payton and Haylee sat and ate breakfast together. And we all kept singing little songs. Payton was making Haylee laugh by grinning his little smile, flashing his beautiful blue eyes and singing repeatedly "Haylee Megan, Haylee Megan, Haylee Megan". For some reason Payton has always used Haylee's full name.

Some of you don't know, but when I was 17 I had a sister named Megan who died in a car accident. She had just turned 19. Wow it is still so hard to write that, it always has been. We were and are still a very close family. It always bugs me that my husband and my kids don't know Megan.

I want them to know her.

I want them to know how funny she was.

I want them to know how great she was.

I want them to feel her friendship and love.

Like I did.

I have talked to Josie about her quite a bit. I tell her little stories. I tell her that we laid in bed together laughing and talking all the time. I tell her that we rode our bikes almost every night in the summers together. I've taken her to the cemetery with me. And she knows who Megan is.

Well this morning as Payton was singing Haylee Megan, I tried to explain that I used to have a sister named Megan. He didn't quite understand, he said "Yes she is right there, Haylee Megan."

I said "No, when I was a little girl I had a sister named Megan."

He sat for a moment contemplating and then calmly said "Ya we saw her."

"No Payton we didn't, Megan died."

"Died?" Payton stood firm, "We saw her."

Now I was really interested. "Where did you see her?"

"Remember we saw her where the rainbow lights were on the bushes."

I was so confused. Was this some psychedelic dream Payton had dreamed? Was this a dream about the pot at the end of the rainbow?

Payton said" I saw Megan when we saw the rainbow lights on the bushes and trees."

I stood there still so confused and Payton was trying so hard for me to understand. Then he repeated it again "I saw Megan when we saw the rainbow lights on the bushes and trees" but then he added "at the temple mom, remember?" Suddenly it hit me. This winter for our family Christmas party we went to the Salt Lake Temple to see the lights. It was a great night! Mom and Dad planned it to remind all of us how important the temple is, especially the Salt Lake Temple because that is where our family began.

It was all making sense now. I had forgotten that Payton had called colored Christmas lights Rainbow lights. "Payton, did you see Megan when we went to the temple?"

"Yes she was behind me."

"She was????"

"Yes, with Jesus."

Tears were filling my eyes and beginning to spill over. "Payton did she talk to you?"

"Nope she just walked by me."

Thank you Payton for reminding me how special kids are. Thank you for reminding me how close each of us walk with Jesus. I feel completely renewed. I want to be a better mother. I want to be a better person. Thank you Payton for sharing your light with me!

Recent (or not so recent) Happenings

**WARNING: This Post Is Very Long**

It's cold here....Look at our poor horse.

And it has been very foggy? smoggy? from the dreaded Cache Valley inversion .

Landon was going to go Mountain Lion hunting by himself...(and I worry a lot when he does that) and I was needing some air and exercise so I tagged along.
Our engagement pictures were taken right there by that bridge, but in July. We hiked a few miles to get to this point then....
Landon told me this is where we would continue hiking....straight up the cliff side.
Looking down on the way up. I proved to be a better rock climber than Landon, but he did a better job going down. I mostly slid on my butt the whole way down.

Eating lunch at the top. It was a beautiful day. We ditched our coats about five minutes after we started. Unfortunately we forgot sunscreen!

Cinder our new puppy...she's 6 months old.

Landon showing off the shed he found.

A few weeks ago I had the week of work off and my kids and I need to see some new scenery so we headed down to Holly's house for some fun. The kids were great the whole time!

I totally lucked out and got to spend the night with Britt's kids while Brittany and Steven went to the Jazz game. I always wish I knew what I could do for Britt so I was so happy to finally do something to help her out. Her kids are so great. The girls had a ball and it was fun for Payton to finally have a boy to play with.

Look at these silly girls!

On another day we met a friend of mine from college at the Kangaroo Zoo. It's is like a big gym full of inflatable slides and trampolines.

Here is an example.

Josie and Avery on the turtle.

Josie entering the frog house.

Payton trying to be brave on the big slide.

Pete on the dino.

Haylee was nervous around all the inflatable creatures and stayed in this position 90% of the time.

The Crew: Josie, Payton, Me, Haylee, Avery, Steph, J.J.

Thanks for finally meeting up with us Stephanie!!!!

Happy Happy Birthday Haylee Dear

Somebody HELP me please!!! My baby is growing up too fast!

Pigtails and walking.....I just can't take it.

Haylee is such a cutie! She is always making us smile

Haylee LOVES to sing. If you start singing she is bound to join in.

So when we all sang Happy Birthday she was right there with us singing along.

Mmm...Mmm Good
Holly and I once again made our Homemade Ding Dongs


I threw this picture in for Hannah...We finally tried some Baby Legs

Sweet Pea Creative Dance Recital

Josie had her dance recital this week and as you can tell she was sooooo excited. My sis-in-law, Cristy Wiser and a friend started a little dance company this year called Sweet Pea and it has been so great. I had Josie in another dance class but it seemed like a bit too much (the costumes were over $50) so I was so excited when Cristy started Sweet Pea. It seems much more relaxed and more geared for younger girls right now and as one of my friend says "without the sexy moves". Anyhow dancing is really not my thing, but Josie has loved it and everyone enjoyed the fun recital. This is total picture overload....but if anyone knows Josie they know she loves to be the star of the show!!!!!

Josie's Solo

Cousins - Emma and Josie

Cowboy Up!!

Like Father....Like Son

Roasting Marshmallows-Payton got a camping playset

Sweet and SourHaylee getting in on the camping fun

Doh!

Notice a few differences?????